oktober 30, 2010

I'm real; Get used to it.

When something's through, it takes ages for me to get over it. And when I'm finally over it, it still lingers in my mind more often than I'd want it to. I get blinded by fake friendships all the time. I easily get my hopes up, just to watch them fall again. I'm easy in believing lies. I'm afraid of ending up alone. You can easily destroy my trust. And even though someone's done something to hurt me, in the end I'll always give them more chances than they deserve. I give out my heart to people, more often than people give out theirs to me. I care too much. I'm sensitive. Vulnerable, yet strong enough to handle the messes I create. Because yes, I do create a mess every now and then.

I guess I'm just human. I make mistakes. I fall. I get up. I keep on going, and learn from my experiences. And there might be lots of things about me that aren't perfect, but at least I'm real. I have real feelings.
And for that, I will never, ever apologize.

With love,
            Claudia.

Written by Claudia.
Saturday, oct.30 2010

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Cold days.

"I've had you by my side during the coldest days of winter, yet we didn't realise there were even colder days to come. Days so cold even our embraces couldn't save us anymore. Days so cold, that it froze us, so deep that I now have to go through these next cold winter days without you by my side."

Just something that randomly popped into my mind about a few days ago. (A)
Turned out a little bit more dramatic than how I actually felt, but it's one's 1 of my personal faves anyways. (:

With love,
            Claudia.

Written by Claudia.
Wednesday, oct. 27 2010

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oktober 24, 2010

I think I'll try defying gravity.

"Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I lost. Well, if that's love it comes at much too high a cost. It's time to try defying gravity. I think I'll try defying gravity. Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity. And you won't bring me down."

I loveee Glee! One of my favorite Glee-covers is Defying Gravity. The song and its lyrics are amazing, and I think Lea Michele and Chris Colfer did a great job covering this song.
Another reason why I love this song is because I can relate to the lyrics. Like I said before, to me, a song is truly beautiful when the lyrics find a way to get to me. And the lyrics of this song, in combination with the performance, truly make that happen. (:



With love,
            Claudia.


(Defying Gravity, Glee-version)

oktober 23, 2010

oktober 19, 2010

Back to basic.


I was searching through my photos, and then I came across a file with pictures that me and my sister made about two years ago. And I don't know why, but I felt like uploading this one. Mostly, because I love the memory I have with this photo. Whenever I see this photo, it reminds me of the fun me&my sister had at that moment (Like we always do when we're making photos), and it makes me realise how different my life was back then. The things I worried about then, now seem so little, so unimportant. In two years, my life has changed hugely, and this photo somehow takes me back in time. Back to the innocence. Back to basic. And I love that feeling. I love looking back, seeing how my life changed in lots of ways. Back then I thought I had it all figured out, like I knew what life had planned for me. I was so naive. So young. So.. unexperienced in life itself. I laugh at it now. Knowing that back then, everything that happened seemed like the biggest deal in the world. And now I look back at it, laughing and now realising that I had seen nothing yet. It's funny looking back at myself, seeing how much I've grown up since then. Knowing that I'm still growing up. And knowing that in a few years, I will look back at myself again, realising that by then, I've grown up even more.

With love,
            Claudia.

oktober 16, 2010

Harmony

Ain't it one of the most powerful feelings in the world, to know that your heart and concience are in harmony? It's like, for a moment, everthing falls into place. As if facing the world has never been a problem.

It's great realising that what you've done, ends up to be the right decision. Even though sometimes, it might've felt wrong instead.

People always told me to listen to my heart. But I now know that listening to your heart, isn't always the right thing to do. Sometimes, listening to your heart will cause you even more hurt, than listening to your concience will ever do.
I've experienced it myself. And I've learned that, the things or people you want the most in your heart, are sometimes the things or people you're best without. It sounds cruel, but in my experience, it's the truth.
It took a while for me to figure it out, but in the end I realised that sometimes, letting go of what you want in your heart, ain't that bad. In some cases, it could even be for the better.

I know how hard it is to just put aside your feelings, so you can do what other people think whats 'best for you'. I know that when your heart's just been broken, that's the last thing you want to hear. But in the end, you'll see that they're right. There's a reason why things end the way they do. And whatever that reason might be, you'll see that in time, you'll be happy it ended. Yes, it's hard to pick yourself up when you heart's broken, but the stupidest thing you could do is to go back to what hurt you so bad, hoping it will all work out by itself.
It happened to me. I gave second, third, even fourth chances to things that just weren't meant to be. And though it felt good in my heart, I always ended up being hurt a little bit more. Though it felt like the right thing to do at that moment, I realised that it was only temporary. 'Cause when things aren't meant to be, they just aren't meant to be. And there's nothing you can change about that.

It takes a while to understand, but sometimes, listening to your concience, instead of your heart, isn't even that bad. I know that many times, it feels that way. But trust me, it really isn't. It just takes patience, because most of the time, the decisions you make with your concience, aren't in harmony with what you want in your heart.
But that doesn't mean it's not better. You just gotta find a way to stand tall, and realise that sometimes, your heart's just plain wrong. It takes a lot of faith, courage, and patience. But in the end, you'll realise that you've made the right decision. You'll start seeing things you didn't see before. Things you probably wouldn't have seen if you just gave in to your feelings.

And you'll notice that, one day, everything will make perfect sense. You'll see why things ended the way they did. And you'll understand that you made the right decision.
That's when your heart and concience are binding. It's when you realise that what you did with your concience, is in harmony with what you want in your heart.
And tell me, ain't that one of the most powerful feelings in the world?


With love,
            Claudia.


Written by Claudia.
Saturday, oct. 16 2010

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oktober 13, 2010

You can't stop my shine.

Yesterday, I FINALLY dyed my hair brown. I've been wanting to dye it brown for ages already, but I just didn't have the courage. Up until now. =D  It's a huge difference, but I really like it. Although, I still have to look at myself twice whenever I walk past a mirror or window, because I'm not used to it yet. Haha. Anyways, here's a before/after pic. ;) Feel free to comment!

With love,
            Claudia.


(Yeah, I know I look younger than 17, no need to mention it.)

oktober 12, 2010

I gotta be who I am underneath.

Just another outfit of mine. Wore it yesterday (:


Shirt: Vero Moda
Vest: ?
Skirt: H&M
Leggings: ?
Shoes: Shoe Outlet.
"Love" necklace: Primark
Heartshaped necklace: Primark

oktober 08, 2010

Failure is never a reason to stop trying.

It's fear of failing that keeps us from changing ourselves when needed. The moment you decide to turn it all around, and change your attitude no matter what it's gonna take, is the moment you conquer that fear, and will be able to succeed. It doesn't matter if you fail once, twice, or even thrice. Failure is never wrong. What matters most is that you've tried. And if you fall, you just gotta pick yourself up and try again. Just as long as it's gonna take to succeed. And you'll see, in the end, every failure you make, brings you one step closer to succeeding. Every failure allows you to look at yourself, and realise what you gotta change to prevent it from happening again. Every failure is an oppertunity for you to do it better next time. All you gotta do is have faith, pull yourself through and trust in yourself. You can change yourself when needed, you just gotta accept the fact that you might fail a few times. But in the end, it's always better to have tried and failed a few times, and learn from your experiences. Than to have not tried, and therefore have not achieved, neither experienced anything at all.

With love,
            Claudia.



Written by Claudia.
Friday, oct. 8, 2010.

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oktober 02, 2010

I'm letting go, using the strength within me.

One of my favourite composers is Isaac Shepard. To be honest, I've never really listened to piano music. Until a few weeks ago, when I was searching for instrumental songs that I could use in my videos. I randomly stumbled upon Isaac Shepard, and I fell in love with his music the moment I heard it. One of my faves is "Letting go", because it reminds me of things that happened in my life, and somehow it encourages me to find the strength to let go of the past, and move on with my life. It's a calm, yet touching song. It makes me think about things in life, makes me look different at stuff.

Anyways, enjoy this piece of brilliant music (:

With love,
            Claudia.
Letting go, by Isaac Shepard.

oktober 01, 2010

You can't hold me down.

Hey there!
Sorry for my lack of posting! I haven't really been in the mood to work on my blog the past few days. Please forgive me (:
Anyways, here's some pics of the outfit I wore today. (A)
I know, boring post.. But it's better than nothing, right? Posts will get more interesting soon. I promise! ^^


Blazer: Primark
Shirt: Vero Moda
Jeans: H&M
Heels: v.Haren.